I have 2 min to class but wanted to pop this up!
1. I haven’t had the best week. Friday night didn’t go quite how I’d hoped and I’d rather not talk about it. Suffice it to say that I guess I gave Glory to God, even if to no one else. I am also left wondering whether it really was God’s will for me to sing that night, given how it went and I hate feeling unsure. To top it off that night we lost my good nursing shawl. On the one hand I will be wanting something a little lighter for the warmer weather we’re heading into, but on the other hand it doesn’t cover quite as well and I will want a warm one again when I have to nurse again in the future! All in all I had a cloud over my head I couldn’t shake for several days afterwards.
2. On Saturday my friend ended up calling me over a car seat at a yard sale. A few hours later I called her back to see if we could get together because it had been way too long. It turns out she had some time so she drove out to see us. The weather had been gorgeous but Saturday was the nicest day of all, setting record temperatures all across the province. We took my toddler for a walk to the store where we got popsicles. I got a green one. I realized I hadn’t had a green popsicle since grade 2 when I broke my leg and they gave me one in the hospital. When we got back to the house the baby was just coming out to join us so we took both kids to the playground.
It was really great to see her and a wonderful little taste of summer, before the typical cold rainy spring weather set in. (The weather has now been ‘typical’ since Tuesday).
3. Something has been on my mind the last couple weeks or so. It’s an issue I haven’t given a whole lot of thought to before but all of a sudden it is coming back. The issue is whether it is a sin to download music etc. I’ve always rationalized it as ok, as long as you’re not claiming it as your own, ie selling it etc. My computer science degree had a mandatory course on computer ethics, and downloading media was a hot debate. I appreciated and still support the arguments that it is good for the artists, because lesser known bands get more exposure and having listened to the music people are more likely to go and spend real money to see them live in concert.
I only download it for personal use which seems like it should be ok, but I just don’t know. It seems like there is still some sort of sin of omission involved, in me not making the effort to actually find out if it’s ok or not. ‘WWJD’ just doesn’t apply because nothing similar existed. The truth is, I don’t want to ask because I’m afraid of the answer. I would rather sit in download limbo than find out what I’ve been doing is wrong-and thus that I can’t do it anymore. I wouldn’t be able to download music etc without a guilty conscience, and what about the mp3s I already downloaded? Could I not listen to any of them anymore without committing a sin? Would it be wrong to listen to my mp3s in the car? Would I have to buy a copy of every single song I want to be able to listen to? I don’t have the funds to cover my entire music collection. Music is something that is very important to me. I don’t think I could pick just 50/100 songs. These are the reasons why I don’t ask.
4. The mp3 transmitter has stopped recognizing my usb key. I guess it’s all for the best? After driving a few times in silence and hating it, I went back to the radio, Though I like the music on my usual station, I don’t like a lot of the commentary and always seem to turn it on during an objectionable segment or commercial and end up switching it off again. So I decided to try the country station instead. I’ve always kind of liked several of the country artists/songs. That kind of music generally has a bit more meaning than most of the other stuff. After listening to it for a couple days I can say that the songs help me stay focused on higher things. Maybe it’s something with the States but the country artists aren’t ashamed to sing about God. It’s hardly praise and worship, but I heard 4 songs with references to God/heaven/prayer in 1 hour. I can’t think of one such song on my old station. Music is one thing that really helps me charge my batteries and keep sane amid chaos. Tuesday it lifted me up, Myley Cyrus, the climb.
“There will always be another mountain
I will always want to make it move
There will always be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Aint about how fast I get there,
Aint about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb.”
5. Around the second week of march the baby started to develop his fear of strangers. We didn’t have much trouble with our toddler, one brief episode for 5 min at playgroup that ended as suddenly as it began, and one time he wouldn’t stop screaming till we left my friend’s house. This baby began to fear strangers younger (when I think it’s typical) and suddenly none of my friends could hold him anymore 
. However it didn’t last to long. That weekend we went away to the retreat, here lots of people wanted to hold him and being his sole caregiver was eager to let them. And by the end of the week he got over it, and has been fine ever since 
6. Our toddler started giving proper hugs and kisses this week. It’s so cute. DH had to go to work for a few hours this week and when he knelt down before going out the door and asked for a hug our toddler came over and gave him a hug and a kiss. I got the same when I got him out of bed on yesterday morning. I love it!
7. Today I was planning to finally take the kids to the Discovery Center. I also had to demonstrate my working server to the professor to get my assignment remarked, but I had not yet gotten it working, so I was also planning a little time at school to fix that up. We loaded the kids up and left the house 5 min later than I was aiming and drove to school. I got my server working again fairly quickly, it’s something I can only do form school, only now it should work anywhere. I also was talking to my classmate and go-to-guy for this class and he mentioned that the next assignment (that I copied the questions for on wed) was due today (I had thought it was Monday, but kept forgetting to actually check this!) I was thinking I would talk to the professor and explain what happened and ask if I could hand it in later that day but she’s going away and it didn’t seem fair to go have fun when I could be working on it. We did load up the car and start driving but before we got there I told DH I wouldn’t enjoy myself with this new stress hanging over my head and had him take me back to school. It was best I work on it at school where I had both a book to borrow and a classmate to consult, and I finished it with 1 hour to spare So Maybe we’ll go next week???
