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I saw this photo on my instagram a few days ago, and this morning when I woke up tired I remembered what I had read:

joyprouty: 3:30am. stopped working to go to sleep and at that same moment the baby woke up to feed. i’ve learned a lot in the last three months of living on the road. the biggest perhaps is that the thing that creates the most bitterness in my heart is my feelings of entitlement towards things… such as a full night’s rest, or a bed/room/space/time of my own. somewhere in the back of my mind I harbor bitterness for the lack of sleep/neediness of children/the daily grind but it is just because I somewhere along the line decided I was entitled to the nature of my life as it was previously and then I grow bitter because the two lives don’t match up. trying to learn to be more grateful these days. choosing continually to let the expectations go. even if it means I don’t sleep. because that just means I have a baby in my arms healthy enough to cry to express her needs. I trust God will give me the strength to serve my family tomorrow because he trusted me enough to make me a mother. I choose to see His gifts instead of my useless bitterness. that is all for my wee morning hours deep thoughts. ;). hugs to the night mamas out there in the dark illuminated by the glow of their iPhones alongside me. 😉

Usually, when I don’t get the sleep I needed and it’s out of my control, even without being resentful of anyone, I get imbued w this great sense that some sort of compensation is expected, required, that I be given extra time to rest, without kids and to let myself slack off a bit around the house etc, because I’m so tired. Then of course when reality and my ideal don’t line up,
I get even more frustrated and angry.
It’s the tired days that almost always leave me frustrated and further from God because then it’s all about me.

Just because I’m tired from being up in the night, doesn’t give me any right to special treatment… ( during that day)

This has been my single biggest hang up that makes for what feels like a bad day. Joy, thank you so much for articulating this so clearly, so I can recognize it and start to change my ways!

There are many days when I start to feel so frazzled from the constant barrage of kid requests and complaints, and I hear it in my voice, that I am not being so patient or kind anymore, and I know I NEED a break, but still I don’t always get it- and yes that leads to more frustration and anger as well.

So, today, any day, maybe God will grant me rest or maybe not, not today, maybe He’ll provide in other ways. Either way, I will give thanks.

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-1- Ooof, I feel so behind and then some. This week has flown by! I did finish putting the pictures into last week’s post, but I think there’s still a little more content I want to add..

-2- Oh boy, here we go! This is a busy weekend with Mother’s Day etc, but the biggest thing will be tomorrow. I’ve known it was coming for a while, but it’s hard to believe that it’s actually here! My little brother is getting married tomorrow. I have mixed feelings about it, namely because my brother, a solid Catholic since grade 4 and long before I joined the faith, is not getting married in the church.

That said, I like his fiance very much and I am hopeful that they will have a lifetime of memories together.
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-3- Recent experience has prompted me to delve a bit more into spiritual warfare. One of the things that I found particularly helpful:

After you have made a decision that is pleasing to God, the devil may try to make you have second thoughts. Intensify your prayer time, meditation, and good deeds. For if satan’s temptations merely cause you to increase your efforts to grow in holiness, he’ll have an incentive to leave you alone. – St. Ignatius of Loyola

As a result I’ve decided to pray a daily rosary with my cd as well as everything else I’m already doing. I’ve put it right into my routine so it won’t get missed! 🙂 I am praying it WHILE tidying the kitchen and making breakfast, but I’m sure that that is better than not praying it at all.

Saying Grace– Lord thank you for all the blessings, You give us far too much! But, abundance is Your character, so we’ll gladly accept!

FOF – Improving your life through small changes – The Power of 1 thing – by Randy Carlson

Boy could I relate to this one. If you want to change your life, the basic idea is to do one right thing every day, until it becomes a habit:

“Every day we either face a problem, or have an opportunity to reach a goal. If you start there, you can start the process.

Think of the trinity: God the father, God the son and God the Holy Spirit. Isn’t it intriguing that God the Father speaks to our heart. The beginning of Wisdom is the fear of God. The Holy Spirit was sent as our comforter. Jesus came to show us how to live our lives. What I have experienced, when the fall occurred, when sin occurred, all that was shattered and this perfect balance of being able to think, feel and do got shattered. When you think a head person a heart person or a hand person, which are you? 85% I’m a head person. Do you miss the heart of your wife? YES!
God wired us to be a heart, as well as a head. We need to understand that we connect with people around who THEY are. The reason a husband and wife will miss each other, many times, you have a man who’s a planner, a strategist, married to a woman who’s sensitive and caring and has a heart, and the man may value thinking more than the emotions, and in the process completely miss the heart of his wife.

If you’re a thinking person as you described, how do you stop and hear your heart?
You have to think your feelings. We as men often lump everything into anger and frustration and control etc… For a thinker, the one thing we can do is stop and think, what am I REALLY feeling right now.

My ADD thinking is going to freeze me up, every procrastinator listening knows what that experience is like, we talk ourselves into a corner, and then we don’t act. If we can start, if we can break that inertia by doing the next one thing, that is the beginning of that intentional life.

I’m a head person, a thinker a planner, but head people sometimes don’t execute, we get so many good ideas, our minds run in so many directions that we freeze. So, I think, what one thing will I do today, that will bring pleasure to Christ? This allows me to get focused! Then, if I do that one thing today, my day has been successful.

Why is it so hard to change? We get into old patterns. we have patterns that develop over a lifetime we have certain ways of thinking.. and those thinking patterns affect how we respond emotionally. Then along with the patterns we have habits and they’re usually not so good habits. We are prone to falling into those old unhealthy patterns and Satan loves that. So, I pick one thing to do one thing spiritually every day. If I do that for a month, it becomes a habit. Now, I miss it if I don’t do it.

I think all of us have one area in all of our lives that if we were to say I can focus on that one thing it would make the biggest difference in my life. If we make just bump along in this life it’s very unintentional.

Procrastinators relate to this, people who have cluttered desks and minds and hearts understand they feel overwhelmed.. Practical example, cluttered desk, cluttered room, people freeze. Go in and clean one drawer. Feel encouraged that you cleaned that one drawer! – That one act allows youto feel more in control.

The power of one thing really comes down to people who are overwhelmed. People hear this topic and think this is really simplistic. But we’ve got a lot of people today who are actually stuck. They have procrastinated, they have problems that have not been resolved, they have goals that have not been reached for, they have emotions that are run away in their life. They’ve got a mess around them, and they need encouragement. And the power of one thing is really written as a book of encouragement, that you can intentionally do one thing today, no matter how small it may seem, that will get you tarted in the right direction. Does it solve all your problems? no. But if we begin the process, then we can eventually get to the goal.

And so the power of one thing is really not trying to say, ‘just do one thing’ our life is full of a lot of things, it’s not going to stop doing other things I need to do, but there may be one thing that’s got such a high payoff, such a big problem, that I’ve been putting off for so long, I better start doing that one thing: if I don’t start walking to take care of my health, if I don’t get out of debt, stop using my credit cards, if I don’t start speaking into the life of my teenager some words of encouragement, if I don’t step up and start being the parent and discipline my kids and hold them accountable, then down the road I’m going to have a nightmare on my hands, so the idea is let’s do ONE thing for the next 30 days to begin that process.”

2 inspiring truths: ‘Our past may be broken, but our future is His!’ ‘Grace runs downhill. It seems our lives are almost tilted towards failure so we can find God.’ – Focus on the Family Broadacast : God’s Loving Care for Single Moms

-4- The baby is rolling all over and even grabbing things now. He’s gotten VERY mobile despite not being able to crawl – yet. I live in fear of this child developing that skill. However, he’s not quite 5 months and already he can get into the crawl position and even the plank position for a push up! I expect he’s going to learn to sit up just by wiggling around on his tummy! One day he will get into a sitting position, and he’ll just be able to stay there!

He’s not even 5 months old!
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-5- I remembered an important thing with nursing, that when I remember has helped baby to be more full. I knew it was important to keep my fluids up (which I’m bad at when I’m not nursing) but I forgot that you’re supposed to have a drink EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU NURSE. When I did this I found had a lot more milk. Now to work on the habit! 🙂

-6- This week we had a sort of princess party with our movie night. We’ll call it a prince party.
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We watched Tangled and I made spaghetti for supper. I also set up a tower scene with a prince and princess and made crowns for us.
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I think this is a rather princely expression 🙂 :
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I also made cinnamon braids for dessert, yum!
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The whole family watching the movie on the couch:
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While googling food ideas I clicked on a picture of a cake and discovered this site with food and craft ideas for several kids movies: http://family.go.com/disney/disney-tangled-crafts-recipes-photo-gallery-pg/view-all/

-7- Tuesday is the big photo project to capture the world in a day. Once the weekend is over I’ll think more about it. If you want to learn more visit, http://www.aday.org/

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From the website: Why Participate?
“Because you love photography. Because you have something to say. Because your life matters. Because the idea of doing something together worldwide is thrilling. Because you like the thought of saving a little something of yourself for generations to come. Because your take on daily life is part of a much bigger picture.”

Here’s another article: http://au.ibtimes.com/articles/327424/20120413/adayorg-day-world-photo-expressions-humankind.htm

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